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mia's avatar

this has all the potential to be depressing as fuck, but it's so uplifting in its rawness and being alive is ok I guess. thank you, James, this is wonderful.

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C. James Desmond's avatar

Many thanks. I was pretty depressed when I wrote it. I suppose I still am. I suppose that’s why I write. To make the sadness hurt less.

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aka Stella's avatar

What’s a spike? Also, I did something really stupid in Philadelphia if that makes you feel any better. And I mean rwrwreaaaaalllly stupid. 🧡

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C. James Desmond's avatar

A spike is a needle.

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aka Stella's avatar

Wow. Paramedic/ER nurse here and never heard them called that. Regional thing?

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C. James Desmond's avatar

When I was a junky nearly a decade ago, that's what we called them in Boston. Rigs, too. I always said spike.

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aka Stella's avatar

I’ve heard rigs and even hypos. Short for hypodermic needles cuz they would steal them from the ER.

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Yolanda D.'s avatar

He's hurting! Thinking about drinking again is bad enough. He needs someone by his side. What can we do? What can anybody do to help him?

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C. James Desmond's avatar

A bullet might work.

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The Life Lessons's avatar

Wow.

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C. James Desmond's avatar

Thanks, friend.

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Billy Mann's avatar

I loved it.

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C. James Desmond's avatar

I love you! Thanks, Billy.

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Billy Mann's avatar

Love you my friend. Hang in there.

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Themes and Deviations's avatar

Nothing like a broken heart to remind you that it’s good to be alive but not necessarily great.

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C. James Desmond's avatar

Something like that!

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